“I haven’t spoken to Chad, we can’t – we have a ‘no contact’ clause, but I hear things. He recently did an interview on ESPN and I saw clips of it but it wasn’t easy to watch because he is still wearing his wedding ring, and says he still wants to be married. I moved out, I took my clothes and I never looked back. I never went back to the house to pack my stuff, I had someone pack it, and I pretty much moved on with my life.
He hasn’t tried to speak to me directly and I don’t think he is going to risk his freedom, I also don’t think it would be good for us. At some point a conversation needs to take place, I have questions about everything and that will happen when it’s supposed to happen. I would definitely like to sit down and talk to him down the road – I would just really like to get up in his head and ask, ‘Why?’
Obviously he wasn’t thinking, but as a woman, there are certain things I needed closure with like why he cheated?
It is hard for me to wrap my head around why someone would put everything at risk. But I am not a man either so I don’t get that at all. Obviously that is wrong, I feel like we were both a lesson to each other, I have learned so many things… things that I will never tolerate again. I don’t care who you are, I don’t care what you do, I never needed Chad for anything.
People think I’m a gold digger but I take care of myself, I make my own money and I pay my own bills. I didn’t need Chad for anything other than companionship. I never needed him to take care of me, he can take care of his kids, I can take care of my daughter, it’s just that we fell in love. I learned from my previous relationship not to rely on a man, that is the worst thing you can ever do in your life – you give up your power, and I like to have power!”
But the reality star turned entrepreneur is saying something different during a sit down with RumorFlix, where she states that her ex deserves a second chance:
This year has been a really, really tough year for me. I would probably say that I have learned that I am pretty patient. It’s just been challenging, honestly It’s kind of an emotional roller coaster. It was tough for me, but I just try to keep it positive and continue to live life. I don’t beat myself up. I have family and friends that have been very, very supportive. I took about a month, month and a half … I just went away for a while and had to regroup and refocus. I feel like I got another chance at life, I know that may sound crazy but that’s how I feel. I’m just like, ‘Ok, we need to keep going, I’m not gonna let any of that tear me down.’ I have good people around me so it’s been OK.”
She then added:
“I do believe in second chances. I actually had someone ask me that recently, and I do. I’m not bitter, things happen and yeah, I do believe in second chances. I would want somebody to give me a second chances, and you never know.”